Feeling sheepish

Sorry about the last post. Was feeling hormonal, which is unusual for me. I just needed to vent some stuff, but thanks for all the positive comments. Mostly I was thinking about my job situation. I was going to write that I'm so sick of being stuck where I am, but that's not exactly true. I still enjoy the work, but feel that it is time for me to move on. Problem is I'm not sure where to move on to. To me, there's no point leaving for the sake of leaving (i.e not gonna go work at Kmart just to get out). But the jobs that I've been looking at, that have more direction towards a career, don't seem to be panning out for me.

And again, I'm sorry if I worried anyone, but I will be thinking about your advice in regards to my future.

Love you all

Shann is boring

And having major moods swings. Things have gone AWOL and I don't know how to get it to work properly. I don't know what I need, and don't know where to get it. I know what I need, but don't know how to get it. It's not working right. How do I get things to go the way I want them to? It's suppose to be easy- I don't know what else I have to learn from this. I think I'm ready to move on, but can't. It won't let me. Am I being too picky? Why shouldn't I go after what I want? Why should I have to settle for something less?

Please disregard the above rant on the grounds of temporary insanity

Warning!

There is only one day of this year left, and as of 2009, no catastrophes, disasters, maudlins, panics, life threatening illness/injuries, problems, issues, havoc, tragedies, trials, tribulations, or any such similar shall be allowed!!!

What makes other people think they have the right to tell me how I should be living my life? No one lives my life, except me.

Life update

I had puppy pre-school tonight (along with the puppy of course!). I think we both did rather well. Bella wasn't too impressed when we first got there, probably partly to do with the car sickness. (We're still working on that). She wasn't too keen on the other dogs there to start with, just wanted to hide behind me or sit on my lap. As the evening went along she went over and was interacting with a couple of the other dogs, so I was very happy with that. I'm looking forward to next week, and I'll hopefully have the car sickness sorted out.

On another note, all the SPF shopping has been done, and wrapped. I like wrapping presents. We went through a bit of a stage of using bags instead of wrapping paper. But I have always liked wrapping- it's a bit of a traditional thing for me.

I got one of the new moves I had been learning in pole the other night. I need to get a video of it, and I should probably get videos of some of my other moves as well. It is a fairly hard move, so I'm really happy- I just hope I can pull it off again!

That's it from me for the moment, love you all!

Back

Melbourne good
Me tired
Lots of shopping
Good fun
Fantastic dancing
Me tired

25 today

As well as turning 25 today, I am off to Melbourne shortly. Lots of shopping to do. I am taking a pedometer because the last time mum and I went on holidays, we walked everywhere and this time we want to know how far we walk, so be prepared for massive shopping spree number!

Because I can

Hair
Eyes
Teeth
Lips
Smile
Skin
Breasts
Tummy
Bum
Legs

Pole photos

I haven't put any pole photos up for a while (I actually haven't taken any for a while!) So I thought I'd put up one of my latest moves. This one is called the Aysha, and it's the same move in both pics, just using different hand placements.

Scary dogs

My puppy gave me a huge scare today, I've been letting her inside for training lessons, then we have a little play. I sat on the lounge and gave her a cuddle, but she was still biting me, so I stood up to go and get her toy, took 3 steps, the heard THUMP...YIP! She had fallen off the lounge and hurt her leg- she made such a fuss I really thought she had broken it, but she's been walking on it ok, so she should be fine. Naughty puppy for scaring me!

Here's a pic, not the best, but she just wouldn't sit still, you know how puppies are:

BTW this is (one of) Bossco's sister(s)

Funerals

Had my cousin's funeral yesterday- was a very nice day actually. The weather was gorgeous (if very hot- I got sunburnt!), and catching up with family. I'm usually hopeless at funerals, but it wasn't too bad for me this time. There were a few tears of course, but also some giggles and smiles. I was doing quite well until they carried the coffin out of the church. It was hard for 2 reasons. Firstly I remembered when my cousins carried their father out of the same church- they were both at the front, and they went out with their arms around each other. It was so hard for both of them, and now one of them had to go through the same thing again with his brother. The other was seeing the look in my brother's eyes, as he lifted that coffin. He just looked so lost, and I'd have done anything to change places with him- but he did our family and himself credit, and he will be better for the experience. But my heart just broke for the both of them.

It must have been such a hard day for my cousins and aunt. Having already lost a husband and father, and now to lose a son and brother- I'm not sure how they bear it. And my cousin on the same side (uncle's daughter) was killed in a car crash at Gloucester last week. So we have been copping it from all sides. I have decided that next year must be better- it couldn't possibly get worse! So I have been sticking close to home lately, and doing the family thing, which despite the reasons for it, has been rather nice.

On a brighter note, puppies are doing well, but we still have 10 of the little buggers, so if you know anyone who is looking for a dog, please send them my way!

Love you all

Circles

My mind is traveling in circles today. My cousin passed on yesterday, so we went to visit my aunt and cousins to be with them. It was a sad day to be sure. He had just had a visit from his little girl, and he went peacefully after that. We had some problems with visitors barging in, despite the "do not disturb" on the front door- I thought it was rather insensitive. I think everyone was handling it well, but my brother and other cousin were not so good. I'm not sure what will be happening next, but any love and support you could send would be greatly appreciated.
Love you all

How to have a rollercoaster ride when you don't hav a rollercoaster

Yesterday was .... not sure how to describe it exactly. It was basically one big f*ck up. Got a phone call from my aunt in the morning about my cousin. We've been told that there is nothing more they can do, and that it's only a matter of time. I had been planning to go to Sydney and visit the boy and his family, and I decided I may as well go anyway, take my mind off things. I was on the train, just past Morriset, and I got a phone call from mum saying that we'd been told he only has 24 hours left, and she couldn't get hold of my aunt, and she'd had a text from my other cousins, saying that they were on the F3 on the way up from Sydney. I get off the train at Gosford, get the train back to Cardiff, and get a lift home (mum and Jade still had to work). They get home and we go up to Paxton. When we get there we find my aunt and other cousin having a very calm chat. I had no idea what was going on, but it turned out that someone had got their wires crossed, and Den is coming home today. There's still nothing they can do, but we're not looking at a 24hour time frame. It gave us the run around a bit, but I would rather this result, than the one were thought we were looking at. So a long easy day in store for me today, to sit back and recover.

Shannu's New Home

Also was very proud of my painting, so it is here:

BTW, Stroud was way fun!

Manifesting again

I had an interview with Michael Hill Jewellers today. Was a group interview, and I will know in the next couple of days if I will be called back for another interview! I am manifestor extraordinaire!

MIA

Yes I have been Missing In Action from Blogland, but just a quick one today. I've probably caught up wih most of you lately anyway, so just for fun, here is a pic of my mum's cross stitch I am doing- this is pages 1 to 4 finished:

Still busy

But the not-doing-much kind of busy. Have been doing a bit of shopping, some things are so cheap over here (ie I paid A$11 for a Body Shop scrub). Went and watched the rugby yesterday. Was very intimidating being one of 2 Aussies in a room full of Springbok supporters. I think we're going shopping again today, and hopefully I will be getting to some markets soon. I'm a bit behind in my souvenir shopping. And some people are a pain to buy for.

Oh also went to an amusement park the other day. Being winter a lot of the rides were closed for maintainance, but there were still a few good ones, including the first roller coaster I have ever been on that goes upside down without a chest harness, just the lap bar! That was a bit freaky.

Anyway, that's about it from me, love you all!

and again

will be brief again
kruger was awesome. Have seen some amazing animals and we had a fantastic trip. Here's a little scope for you. Some Saffers (south africans) can go to Kruger for a week or two and not see anything more interesting than antelope. We saw the big 5 (lion, elephant, rhino, leopard and buffalo) 3 times in 3 days. We saw honey badgers (hard to find), a rock python, sable, ground hornbills (used to be very rare), secretary birds, and more. We had a bush baby (looks like a possum) watch us braai (barbeque), and saw a leopard with her cub. We caught up with one of the exchange students who was out in Australia a few years ago. So it has been wonderful. My other travelling companions have left for the Egypt tour, so JAde and I are bumming around for the next few days (hopefully getting some shopping done, I am way behind in my souvenirs!), and after that we are visiting a friends farm to see them release rhino onto the property.

Hope everything's all good at home! Love you all heaps!

South Africa

Have to be really quick, am at a friend's place using their internet, so short run down.
Got here safely
Have been very busy
Seen lots of animals
Saw lions- big event!
And a gumby giraffe
Going to Kruger NAtional PArk soon
HAve been way busy
Miss you all

Still around

But not for much longer. Have spent most of the weekend packing, and am curiously worried that I don't have a full suitcase. Oh well, it definitely will be when I come home. The count down is on! YAAD assignment 2 is done and ready to be handed in early (do I get a Diana award??) but assignment 3 will need to wait till the safari is over.

Full steam ahead for the next few days- as well as most of my normal shifts, I am covering my brother's as well since he is already in SA. I finish at 7:30pm on Wednesday then get up at 5am Thursday morning to be at airport for 10am flight. Not sure how often I'll be checking in, but rest assured I will be thinking of you all and will be coming home safe and sound. (And probably already wanting to get going again!!).