Things feel so weird at the moment. I usually have a pretty good outlook on life. I never used to but this "optimism streak" has been around for a while now. The problem is that I seem to have lost it and have no idea where to start looking for it. Things are the same, yet different. Life goes on as it always has, but something has subtly changed and I can't put my finger on the reason, or the cause, or even what it is that is different. All I know is that it is. If I knew what it was and why it was, I could fix it. As it is I just have to follow through until something points me in the right direction.
My brother has just informed me that my pole will be removed today. Yes, informed. Not requested, asked, discussed. Informed. I have been relegated to the small cell that is my room. The only space in the whole house that I have any control over. His photos on the walls, his stuff in the rumpus room, the rumpus room quickly becoming his domain, instead of communal area.
Sorry everyone, I don't mean to add the to gloom, just needed to vent. Here's hoping the happy bubble Shann returns soon!