Tuesday, November 28, 2006

I'm early

Next weekend I will be turning 23, and this has me thinking about life, the universe, and everything, as you do. In 2 years I will be 25, so I figure I may as well start my quarter-life crisis now.

I spent 3 years doing a degree but have no immediate plans to do anything with it.

I am still living at home with my parents (in a single bed)

And recently I have begun to think about having kids. Not planning to have kids of course, but just the whole idea. And for some reason I'm worried that I might not be able to have kids. I can't think of a single reason why I couldn't, but it's there all the same. And along with that is, when would I have kids? In 2 years time I will be 25, 5 years after that I'm 30. I guess I'm falling into the trap of thinking my "young life" is coming to an end.

Anyway, not sure that this really accomplishes much, and most of you are probly just thinking "what the hell is this girl on?" but some opinions (or even just reassurance) would be great.


Cyndy said...

We all "wonder" at times; just don't fall into the trap of "wondering" your life away; make sure you live each and every day. This doesn't mean that every day should be happy, or that you should aim to provide world peace, just be content within yourself. It can take a long time to work the "big questions" out; you're only 23, afterall ;)

Rylah said...

I can totally relate Shann. I'm 24 and have these little "Oh my god in 5 years I'm 30" freak out moments too.
Just remember alot can happen in 5 years... You never know what's around the corner. Look at me, I'm older than you, still living at home, not working, not studying, never had a boyfriend.... of course most of that is because of my illness, but one thing I've learnt is that life doesn't go according to a timetable, and don't expect everything to happen on schedule. Because of my illness I've had to come to terms with the fact that this is my life, and I may be a little late in some regards, but in the end it doesn't really matter. It's MY life.
Take it easy on yourself, sweety.
Rylah xXx

Anchell said...

Dont worry darlin, you have all the time in the world to get to those things. And get to them you will. It is very normal to wonder though.

Kathleen said...

I feel that it is human nature to wonder and to ask the big questions - who am I, where am I going, what's next, where did I come from, why am I here, what is my purpose ...

It keeps us going.

It's interesting to read your post today as this morning I was reflecting on the last 18-20yrs of my life and how much time and energy I have invested in "wondering" about children and if/when they would happen for me/us ... and how I could have channeled the energy into actually living!

I agree with Cyndy, don't fall into the trap of wondering too long and hard ... enjoy each day as it unfolds.

Raihn said...

so much of your future path lies as yet uncharted dear shann-j-panni- for now, just be you & breathe deeply......I am 20 years older than you........wow.....so much will open for you in the next 20 years.........
me x