At the moment I have no idea. Had very distracting and mostly not good dreams last night. Not violent or scary, but depressing and negative. It's amazing the things that get in your dreams and the way your brain will scramble them around so that they make no sense to the original context of the situation, but make complete sense in dream-world. I don't know if I'm supposed to examine these issues or if it's just my brain going nuts on me and I should just ignore them. Nearly every one was about other people's treatment of me, though in one I know it was the way I treated them first that resulted in their treatment of me. One was so scrambled I have no idea what the origin of it was.
I don't know why I'm letting this get to me so much. maybe deep down I feel that I am to blame for all of this.
I think tea will make it all better.
Love you all